Will I be seen? Will I be heard? A child continuously asks himself The answer is not here, not there The answer isn’t anywhere. The child grows up and still A question or more he has Will I be grand? Will anyone care? Will mom be here? Will dad show up? More questions come and go Just as time flows. Triangulations start and end like that, No clear conclusion ever reached It’s just like talking to thin air, It’s neither here, it’s not quite there It’s like a ghost that sometimes comes To mess with human minds It’s ego, some might say It’s not, But then again, what is it? What is there left to be? A shadow of the past? Some memories? Will I be seen? Will I be heard? Will I be someone worthy long before I’m gone? You never know how you grow up Or not to be, For choices you have many It’s always up to you to see Your worth Or not to be Yourself, but someone else For whom? For what and why? Will I be heard? Will I be seen? The child just is.
Category: Just us… humans and more.
Why do I write? Why do you read?
Some poems are for me to know While others are for you to read. Some words are mine and mine alone You’ll never know of them, they’re incomplete. Through poems do I know myself? Through reading do you hide your self? I write for me to listen You read for you alone. I write for me, I also write for you I write for the world, I write for no one In particular. I hope they’ll read, I hope they won’t, My family. I write because I cannot speak Of all the things there, in my soul. You read, why do you read All the poems in the world?
A soul’s journey to the afterlife
The statues in the cemetery are all blue Grey I think they were supposed to be or white The sky has fallen over them There’s no need to cry. I rise from ashes down below And scream to get a light “Sorry, I don’t smoke!” Someone answers from above. I said “No smoke, just light!” “No light, just blue!” the answer comes I said “Hello, not blue!” “The whale is blue, no light!” the answer comes again. I need a light to move, no shadows The statues move in all their blue Their heads are bowed, no lantern light “Give me some light in all that blue!” “No light in here, might well give up!” The answer rises once again “Who are you, now? What do you want?” I ask again, in desperation for a blue. “No need to know, just keep it low, Disturbing are you of things fine No need to know, just keep it blue, Down below!” The statues move and hear my cry They bring me forth a light. I make no sense of what it is It’s neither blue, nor white. “What have you brought? I make no sense!” “No need to know, just keep with you!” “I need to know, I need a light!” “No need to know, just keep it light!” I make no sense of what is going on Why am I here in all this blue? The sky is pierced, the sun has died In all this earth, I see no light. “No need to know, just keep it light, As life unfolds, you better know That you don’t move in all this light You’re dead and gone, but still turn blue…” “Why am I here? Explain at once!” “No need to know, just keep it light You can’t go back, you can’t move on You’re here to stay a year or two.” “Why am I here and where is here? I need to know!” “No need to know, just keep it blue, The sky is clear and so are you.” “The sky is clear? I cannot see!” “No need to know, for ghosts don’t speak!” “What ghosts? Where are they now?” “No need to know, no need to breathe.” “I need to breathe in order to survive! I need a light, just show me where!” “No need to know, no need to cry, You’ll stay here for a while.” “I need to go, to go back home! Release me now, I beg of you!” “No need to go, you’re here to stay, Your life is over, don’t you know!” “I do not know, I accept not What you now say! Why am I here and where is here? “I need to go!” “You need to stay a day or two You need to rest to breathe anew. No need to know, just take it as it is, No need to cry, I have you here!’ “And where is here? Just let me out!” I cannot stay, I need to go!” “The light is blue and so are you, Immortal soul with no way out.”
The kiln
My throat is clogged With all the words I want to say, But can’t. I don’t know Where they have gone, I cannot see Where life begins and ends. My mouth is dry With all the wine I drank, I need some water For rebirth. I think of clay And see your hands Shaping the strands. A vase is born, It’s dried as well Under the sun Next to the kiln. You knew of patterns Long ago And stories told Next to the fireplace. I know you not, I kid you not, I cannot see, I cannot hear. My voice is where? Coming out of nowhere, I see your voice But cannot hear your words. My ears are red With mistletoes and kisses promised, Never fulfilled, Never regret The pain that washed over me. You left a vase behind An inscription said You took to the sea As vast as your being Of words, of shapes, of sounds The kiln dried everything, The words, the shapes, the sounds. I cannot breathe, The air is dry, Too dry for me to live.
Are you looking at the sky?
Who were you when I didn’t know you? What stars illuminated your sky? Were they different or the same as mine? Were we walking on the same planet, Were we looking at the same sky? Were we breathing the same air Smelling of roses and sunny sheets, You know, that fragrance freshly washed laundry has, Left to dry outside, on the line. Amidst yellow flowers, is your sky blue, Up above the brown color of your hair? Are you looking at the same sky Or is yours different from the clouds that make up mine? I can’t decide if my letters to you should be short or long, If phrases should be kept neat and orderly, or if I Should throw a twist in there To make you wonder why I started writing in the first place When I could have just called to say “Hi!” Have you changed your number or is it the same As the one you had some lifetimes ago When we both imagined the telephone Just so we could more easily talk From our separate and different corners of the universe. My time stopped while yours kept on moving, And then they reversed. I fell asleep while you were waking up, Slowly pulling the curtains to look at another Sun drenched morning sky. Are you looking at the same sky as I? Are there any clouds today or is it clear? I thought I heard you sing one day, Out on the terrace that made up all of our yesterdays, While strolling around the garden I heard a bird say your name. I turned around, hoping to see you, But all I could make up was a silhouette Standing against the light of the sun Coming down to the earth from your place in the sky. I miss you, I can’t see you, I wish I could hear you Say my name. Are you looking at the same sky as I am? Does it have the same color as mine? In what corner of the universe are you hiding in this time? I never know when to look at the sky To catch the same stars and the same light Melting away, like snowflakes In the fluffy clouds behind which you hide your smile. Are you looking at the same sky as I?
Words with no name
Evening comes Drops Leaves falling The gentle sky Sways in rhythm With time Passing Sitting still Moving forward Infinity Everything A season A year
Când fața-mi întorc
Când fața-mi întorc către soare Primăvara, vara și toamna uneori Regăsesc frigul iernii, proptit lin în mine, Smucindu-mi zâmbetul ce oricum, era trecător. Când fața-mi întorc către tine Abia de te recunosc, fug și mă tem De schimbarea survenită în sufletu-ți Ce altădată învăluia lumea mea, blând. Când fața-mi întorc către lume Îmi vine să strig: „Ce se-ntâmplă aici?” Toate-s ruine, necropole, arse cutii Altădată depozite de zâmbete și bucurii. Cănd fața-mi întorc către mama, Nu-mi vine a crede cum timpul trecu’, Mai ieri eram mică, ea mare, Astăzi eu sunt mare, ea mică se făcu. Când fața-mi întorc către tata, Nu-l mai găsesc decât hăt, departe, În amintiri și poze cam șterse De când viața anima încă într-însul. Când fața-mi întorc către suflet Aproape tresar și mai să mă-nspăimânt, Aș planta semințe care să dea germeni, Dar apa, vai, nu e de știut. Când fața-mi întorc către apă, Curgând și spălând nisipul, pietrele O las să curgă prin ființa-mi deșartă Care va redeveni pământ.